Rain, rain go away, don't ever come another day. Rain is one of those paradoxes of life, eternal yet incomprehensible, not in physical terms but in how it evokes, revokes, ignites or dries emotions. It is joy, romance, cherished memories if I am happy; it is my partner in melancholy, mocker of my solitude, another depressor, when I am sad.

Its one of those times again where I am lost-lost in a sea of words searching for the ones I need to convince my loved ones back into my life; lost in haze of memories, trying to recall what, just what did I do exactly to push who, who away.

You see, good times pass so quickly, before we can even capture their joy or stay long enough to etch them in our memory to use as motivators later. All we can remember is how the journey ended, the last words spoken, the dead end of the road, usually ugly enough to end it all. I yelled, they yelled, we both saod horrible things that would haunt us with ghosts of guilt and pierce our hearts with permanent needles of pain that we deliberately and consciously aimed at one another.

Anger is just the climax of all the bottled up frustration. When the bottle is shaken too hard all that bubbles out is ugliness, ugliness of the most terrible phrases like "all your love did was hurt me" or "thanks for ruining my life". The vocabulary is as simple as a third grader's but how the words conform to elicit the intended hatred is what makes them unforigvable, unforgettable and unfavorable for all the remaining days of life.

Distance kills feelings slowly like a poison that enters the veins, contaminates and seeps into every drop of blood extremely slowly, invading every inch of the person inside until we are forced to spit or vomit the venom out but its too late by then.
The poison has already conquered our senses and we push our loved ones away even when our heart is screaming not to do it but we are so engulfed by anger and negativity.

"We'll always be together, no matter what happens."

"No matter what happens" is so absent mindedly used for external factors spoiling a relationship when the only reason bonds break are because of internal failure to stick together, to tolerate each other and most importantly yet the most difficult part, to accept each other for each other in black and white and all the shades of gray.