When the only people who can make me laugh at days like these are trapped on a virtual screen, I am bound to wonder yet once again why I landed up so alone.
I don't know if I am just plain unfortunate in friendship or if its always my fault being so self-engrossed or boring that I can't have good friends. By these friends I mean not my bffs who are always going to be there to lend an ear. I mean friends who I can call up at this hour, whom I can hang out with right now.
There are just too many things boggling my mind right now. For instance my unattractive personality, so unattractive that my own would rather spend time with somebody else. He doesn't even miss me anymore let alone love me madly like he used to.
What does it matter anyway? Its not like I crave a guy's love. I just crave being stress free, laughter, relaxation. I lost my friends one by one, those whose friendship was so cherishable and just simply amazing. Hg, Hg, when will you learn?
Sometimes I wonder whether I am just friend material. Whether guys only like me as a friend and nothing more because I am too boring or too emo. Or was, so I want to believe so.
Life is not short and I keep thinking that this is what I deserve for my sins. My justice lies in the Skies. "Adal", meaning justice. So I guess I'll just be patient, have to be.
Mannchalay is good, it makes me laugh, like Hannah Montana.
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